Today I want to share some the poem I shared on my blog in the past. Poetry for me was a way to cope with my emotions in the time I was in a dark place because of my trauma and it seems like they are worth now sharing with the world.
Only a few can accept me for me! I feel like if you do not care then goodbye.
I was in a dark place when I wrote this, and I have grown up but still I don't have the patience or time for fake people.
Find some company
I want to find some sweet company. I do not want people to judge me anymore. I just want to be loved for me. Do not fight with me when I say what is on my mind.
Do not judge me when I say that he means so much I cannot explain. I do not tell him I love him and another man. I want to only love him. But it is not that easy to do.
I am working toward what god has invested in me to be. God has this wonderful plan for me.
Poem 1 is called "Mind Spell"
Alone and afraid, scared, bruised, beaten.
When the gut-wrenching pain is happing, I feel like screaming.
He makes me feel dead inside and live on the exterior.
Tears roll down my beaten face.
Running driving anything to getaway.
Escaping the memories, the pain lasts all over again damn you PTSD.
Feeling alone in the misery that's called life.
I wrote this around age 16 I had just recently been diagnosed with PTSD. Finally, it was good to know my pain had a name.